Well, that's not exactly true. It's not been split today, it's been one side of it. It's so easy to slip into that which I once knew as all I knew. Here and there. It's funny, how uni-life can seem like a parallel universe. In considering how it is back there, it seems like an age ago, a completely separate era of my life. It's only been a fortnight.
In a couple more weeks, it will flip again. It will go back to being labs, lecture, library, lecture, labs - that will just as easily become the norm, the transistion is almost seamless. That's why I have to take a hold of my conscience and appreciate the here and now. It's good to feel relaxed, but sometimes, I'll get annoyed and think I'm missing the freedom and autonomy, spontaneity and open opportunities of busy busy uni buzz, compared to the restrictions and monotony, planned organisation of quiet home time. I probably am, to a certain extent.
But I do like being here. Homesickness is a hard aspect to quantify. Of course, there'll be times at uni that I wish I could get away from it all and hop back home, but most of the time, I manage okay, I'm not too bothered, it's just another day. A different day; a different me. There is a change in my personality when I go to uni. After a little bit more than a year and a half, while I have many good friends, I don't feel much of a closeness to most people, really. I suppose for some people it just takes more time, I'm getting there...
This is one of the posts I forgot to comment on when it was writen...
ReplyDeleteBut yeh, anyway. I was basically thinking something along the same lines as you just before this went up, and I was gonna write something on my blog about it. Reading this, I was like "whoa, she stole my post!" :-P
Anyway...
"There is a change in my personality when I go to uni."
For me, I don't think it's so much a change in my personality, as it is different aspects of it coming to the fore with different people. I have to say, I kinda like it.