Heart Autonomy

Today, I have considered a scientific theory.

I haven't fully worked through it yet, so bear with me.

So you have this heart, and it pumps blood 'round your body, right? But it's also the place that hurts the most when you hurt inside your head. So what I think is like, maybe say if your heart has got used to beating to its own time. Your heart is your own, you know how to make it work and sometimes it might get a little deflated, but with a bit of effort, you manage to get it up to speed again.

But then if you see someone, and it lasts longer than a momentary fleeting meeting, your heart can get a bit out of whack by this other person's heart. Your hearts end up having late-night bonding sessions, where they each give a bit of blood, or whatever, to the other and so they're linked together and as well as pumping blood to you, it's also pumping life into this other person, and vice versa, and it's great because, well two hearts are better than one, right? While it's possible to be complete with just one heart, if you have another, it can share the strain if any pain comes your way. So soon enough, your heart isn't as emotionally strong as it was when it had to hold its own. But that's okay, because you have the other heart to back you up, so you can end up overall healthier and happier. But what happens if this meeting with this person is cut short, for whatever reason? Then your pairing heart is ripped out of your body, and your own heart doesn't quite know how to act. It's like there's a hole, except it's not really a hole, it's just a dent in your heart, the impression of the other heart still remaining as it has spent several weeks or months or however long moulding to the shape of your own heart, so it feels weird to not have that kept in place any more.

So it feels really odd, and you need some way to deal with this oddness. Some people, I guess, might try and find some other hearts to try and fit, but the problem is, it takes a while for the heart to mould comfortably, and it's unlikely that the new heart is going to fit exactly to the bumps and dips of the gaps left by the old heart. Then again, even if it's not quite a perfect fit, the mere contact at key points can be enough to satisfy for a while, better than leaving it completely uncovered, anyway, and like plasticine, it's easier to try to mould something that's already there than start completely afresh. Though some people will do that, I guess, try to build the heart up to something resembling the shape it was before it got that great big blow by the other heart. Of course, it'll change every time you do this, but the shape of the heart is changing all the time anyway, you can't hope to preserve it forever. The dents are what gives it character and history. And it may take it a while to get it back to that independent happy girl's heart where your heart is strong enough to take anything that is thrown at it. And who knows, maybe when that happens, you'll find that it'll be able to catch the next heart that tries to mould to it and may be that heart will be the one that sticks.

I dunno how accurate that is, I never was the best at biology.
or chemistry.

On the jukebox: José Gonzalez ~ Heartbeats