Today, I have experienced acrophobia.
I used to hate heights, but now I can cope a lot better. I have been up to the tops of buildings of many cities across the world, it's the best ways to get the views. While I still don't feel wholly comfortable with high places, the fear is more rational than it once was.
But it suddenly struck me on a bridge today, constructed high above the river flowing beneath. It had stood there for over 200 years without issue, people were crossing constantly, there were sturdy barriers. Unfortunately, reason doesn't hold much ground when faced with phobia.
I got the shakes and the start of the tears and I thought I wouldn't be able to do it. It was scary but with my eyes facing forward and my fingers not moving from the handrail for the short length of the strong, steel bridge, I managed it.
As Baz Luhrmann told me: "do one thing every day that scares you". That was one of my scary things for today and although it wasn't massive wouldn't be a problem for most people; I am slightly proud of myself for not going back, for not bailing. Big things are built from little achievements.
Flitterbox: Frank Sinatra ~ That's Life
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