Today, I have been surrounded by testosterone.
Distracted.
Boys. Everywhere. All the time. Filling my mind and my work and my home and my days and my nights.
I am not a girly-girl. But I am not one of the lads. However, in my type of work, I am in the minority gender which probably shouldn't make a difference, boys are people too, after all. But I miss having girl friends.
I know it shouldn't really be this way, and maybe it's somewhat in my head, but I kind of feel like I'm on display anytime I walk any place. I kind of feel like I have to be extra girly to counteract all the boyish banter that flies around. I kind of feel like I'm being teased or talked about, constantly. I kind of feel like the ladies loo is the only place I can really escape. I kind of feel like sometimes I just need a female there to understand.
Distracted.
Boys. Everywhere. All the time. Filling my mind and my work and my home and my days and my nights.
I am not a girly-girl. But I am not one of the lads. However, in my type of work, I am in the minority gender which probably shouldn't make a difference, boys are people too, after all. But I miss having girl friends.
I know it shouldn't really be this way, and maybe it's somewhat in my head, but I kind of feel like I'm on display anytime I walk any place. I kind of feel like I have to be extra girly to counteract all the boyish banter that flies around. I kind of feel like I'm being teased or talked about, constantly. I kind of feel like the ladies loo is the only place I can really escape. I kind of feel like sometimes I just need a female there to understand.
Everyone is so far away these days. IT'S RUBBISH.
Frustrated.
On the jukebox: Britney Spears ~ Boys
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