At the moment, it's a freshly boiled, steaming cup o' chamomile. I've just baked a cake. Cake makes everything better.
Today, I went to tea time with the rest of the people in my lab. For the first time, I didn't order tea to take away because I had no-one to stay with. For the first time, I had tea in a ceramic mug rather than a polystyerene cup. Lots of people are having a bit of a rubbish time at the moment - in work and their personal lives. So we took a break, half an hour out of our day and though it's not as if we're friends, we're colleagues and spending most of your week with people, you're bound to build up some kind of rapport. I feel like I'm almost a part of that now.
I'm still majorly stressed about everything but I haven't cried since this morning and I've spent less time crouched on toilet stall floors than in previous days, so that's a plus point at least. One of my endeavours actually worked today, so that's amazing and worthy of a huge pat on the back and a ginormous sigh of relief that not all I've been working on is in vain.
So, I continue not to have a clue where I'm headed, whether that be about next week, next year or tomorrow. But I've had a long chat with my friend and I feel like my frustration is justified and that I should be getting more help than I am presently being offered. I'm going to talk to my lab buddy tomorrow, and I'm crossing all my fingers that something unexpected may again happen overnight. We shall see.
On balance, today has been okay. I know it's unorthodox to post twice in one day, but well, I am addicted to the internet and sometimes people can be more lovely than you expect so I feel I owe you this much - today has been okay. I've just been making cake with my housemate and neither of us are exactly kitchen whizzes, but we did have an electric hand mixer, so that makes it a bit easier. My tea is now cool enough to sip and the cake is all ready to eat, so I'll leave it here, for now.
On the jukebox: KT Tunstall ~ Minature Disasters
Today, I went to tea time with the rest of the people in my lab. For the first time, I didn't order tea to take away because I had no-one to stay with. For the first time, I had tea in a ceramic mug rather than a polystyerene cup. Lots of people are having a bit of a rubbish time at the moment - in work and their personal lives. So we took a break, half an hour out of our day and though it's not as if we're friends, we're colleagues and spending most of your week with people, you're bound to build up some kind of rapport. I feel like I'm almost a part of that now.
I'm still majorly stressed about everything but I haven't cried since this morning and I've spent less time crouched on toilet stall floors than in previous days, so that's a plus point at least. One of my endeavours actually worked today, so that's amazing and worthy of a huge pat on the back and a ginormous sigh of relief that not all I've been working on is in vain.
So, I continue not to have a clue where I'm headed, whether that be about next week, next year or tomorrow. But I've had a long chat with my friend and I feel like my frustration is justified and that I should be getting more help than I am presently being offered. I'm going to talk to my lab buddy tomorrow, and I'm crossing all my fingers that something unexpected may again happen overnight. We shall see.
On balance, today has been okay. I know it's unorthodox to post twice in one day, but well, I am addicted to the internet and sometimes people can be more lovely than you expect so I feel I owe you this much - today has been okay. I've just been making cake with my housemate and neither of us are exactly kitchen whizzes, but we did have an electric hand mixer, so that makes it a bit easier. My tea is now cool enough to sip and the cake is all ready to eat, so I'll leave it here, for now.
On the jukebox: KT Tunstall ~ Minature Disasters
When I have the time I'm gonna make me a rainbow cake - maybe 50 years down the line...
ReplyDeleteSometimes its good to talk x
Glad you're feeling better. It's definitely a good idea to have a talk to someone if you're that unhappy - chances are they won't have a clue if you don't tell them.
ReplyDeleteAnd it always helps when you get a little bit of a relationship with the people you work with, after all you spend more time with them than anyone else.
And cake ALWAYS helps :)
Glad things are looking a bit better for you.
I'm very glad to hear all of this. Hope things carry on getting better :) and did you actually make an actual rainbow cake?!! I may have to do some baking this week... xxx
ReplyDeleteI plan to make a rainbow cake one day - alas, that was a little ambitious for this spur of the moment spontaneous cake-making sesh. If anyone does make a rainbow cake (recipes are on the internet, everywhere) please do post pictures on respective blogs, and send me a piece if possible? Kthx.
ReplyDeleteIt got better as the week went on. I'm still in a state of ultimate unsurity, but I have a sufficient support network to get me through, I think.
:)
Glad to hear it (vis-a-vis the getting better but most particularly the support network). No woman is an island :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure that my culinary skills are up to a rainbow cake, alas...