Tuesday, 5 August 2008

Preparation Procrastination

Today, I have researched and emailed and browsed and read and shopped and searched and planned and packed and panicked.

While packing isn't the most awful activity to carry out, it is still one that I do not enjoy. Half the time, I feel I'm living out of suitcases and boxes, these past few months have been no exception. As I struggle to gather together everything for my upcoming trip, I'm searching through untouched boxes from university living, along with bags from other visits, holidays, days out. The main worry is that I won't pack everything I need, and although that's never yet been a severe problem, there's always the potential for things to go wrong.

Perfectionism seeps through, touched by minor OCD-type mentalities. Have I checked it 187 times? Do I have everything? Will it be enough? Is it too much? What if it's too hot? What about when it rains? What will we do?

This part of preparation is the bit I hate. It's not even about leaving things to the last minute, it's all these factors that are beyond my control. I want to feel like I'm making the most of every moment, I want to fit everything in, I want to have an amazing time. Organisation isn't my forté, yet there's still this compulsion to have everything just so, I want to make sure I know all there is to know, planned all I can to make the most of the time, the place, the opportunity. Frantically emailing friends to find out what's best from the people who live there, people who've been there, websites, guide books, anything. I want to do everything, but there's not enough time, I want to experience as much as possible, but how to fit it all in, and when?

There's fireworks on this day
and you've got to visit here,
we'll provide you with a place to stay -
you know, we live quite near.

On Thursday it's a festival,
You've got to do the tour,
Make sure you see the best of it all,
And if you've time, there's more!

Well, I just want to say it twice,
there's that and this and there,
so as long as you can pay the price,
you could go any where!

À bientôt!

Today has taught me: I really should probably unpack as soon as I get back, and I really should probably pack before the day before. But I know that I really probably won't ever manage to do either of those things, and if there's an option, I will always procrastinate.

On the jukebox: 5ive ~ Don't Wanna Let You Go

5 comments:

  1. Enjoy wherever it is you're going! :-)

    Ironic that I should read this just after a double-bout of my own unpacking. The only reason that it has been done within 24hrs of getting home is that I have to pack again soon, and the disorganisation was starting to panic me! I hate packing, I hate unpacking. But then I hate living out of boxes/ cases, so...

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  2. I'm still maintaining you've got room for a small genie :oP I'm desperate to goooo!

    As for packing, I always always leave it til the night before or even the morning of departure. There's just something inherent in me that doesn't want to be clever and prepared. It just seems unnecessary...or I'm a fool. heh.

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  3. "Perfectionism seeps through, touched by minor OCD-type mentalities. Have I checked it 187 times? Do I have everything? Will it be enough? Is it too much? What if it's too hot? What about when it rains? What will we do?"

    I can definitely relate to that. Must. Cover. All. Bases. Wouldn't trade those tendencies for the world though, they ensure everything goes smoothly when it could very easily go down in flames.

    Have fun!

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  4. I hate unpacking, always do it at the last minute!! Packing, on the other hand, I enjoy - it brings associations of other places, setting off on a journey, different scenery...excitement. =)

    Although with my packing OCD, it is somewhat less of an unknown adventure and more of a "have I got this or that, have I checked tickets/passports etc. etc." but tbh it is that which makes sure I DO have everything, even if it is annoying that I tend to check very often.

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  5. Sorry, the above comment was mine, I used my cousin's account and didn't realize!! And when I did, it was too late to delete it. =(

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